claira_chan

You're really begining to piss me off. I hate the way you're trying to mould me into your perfect person. I can't and won't change for anyone. When we weren't talking, I managed to find stability in my life. Then you came back, like a car crash waiting to happen. As soon as I let you back in my life, I slowly began to regret it. I thought I needed you so much but I don't. I realise that now and I'm trying to break away but you keep grabbing tighter.You say you love me, but do you really know what that means? I do. And it's not this. We used to talk so much. But now we're just drifting apart. I loved you once, but then you started being a bit of a twat to me. I've begun to think that the only reason I let you get so close was so that I could get closer to your friends. I like them, they're cool. They don't treat me like an object of sexual desire that you can just own and never let anyone else see.
Oh! I hate how you think I'm this fragile little child that needs to be looked after all the time. I'm sorry but no. I am perfectly capable of looking after myself thanks. I'm stronger than you seem to think I am. I've had to be. Seriously, mate, I know you've been through some bad stuff but it can't be as bad as what I've been through in the past. Trust me. When we stopped speaking I built a wall around that part of my life. Determined to slowly forget. But you came back with a battering ram. You're the one that's breaking me at the moment. I would say all this in person. But you'd make me feel guilty and I'd end up lying some more. I only have one secret now. Which I shan't divulge no matter how much it hurts me.
But yeah.
What happens now?

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